Repeating Motifs

Embodiment & Death

I’ve noticed something today. Another pattern. Earlier this week, the words expand and enough were repeating, from different sources. The concept of embodying what you want, who you want to be - and what the energy of being that feels like - has also come up. But today, I noticed another repeated motif…an interesting one among several books - one that I’m reading, one that I’ve bought and will read next, and one that was recommended to me by a friend. The theme is death, but even more specific, suicide, but further still, suicide unrealized and the life that follows afterward. Doesn’t this seem indicative of the start of a “new chapter” year? Of starting fresh after a difficult, dark, or dead period? I think of finding light at the end of the tunnel, a path after being lost. Perhaps counterintuitively from the outside, I’m optimistic about the significance of these reptitions. The symbolism of death is change, and expanding means reshaping your former self to take up more space, a figurative suicide of your previous form of sorts.

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In thinking about how I can be more expansive, I am first reminded that I am enough. Just as I am, where I am, I am enough...for the relationship, community, career, business, recognition, and life I want. I AM ENOUGH. I can take up space with my ideas, opinions, lessons. I can take up space with my wants, needs, and visions. I am already enough and have the capacity to hold more of what I desire and envision.

As I think about who the future me is that I want to embody, I take some time to write out her charactierstics.

• She’s happy, confident, energized, and excited.

• She doesn’t have anxiety about things because she knows that only the present moment matters and if she lives in it, she’ll have everything she needs in each moment.

• She’s friendly and outgoing, fancy-looking but down-to-earth.

• She’s creative and stylish.

I’m writing her down so I can embody her and make her happen. What is it that you want to embody (while treating yourself well without harming others and treating others well without hardming yourself)?

With gratitude <3

Trust the process.

Recommended reading:

• Veronika Decides to Die
  Paulo Coelho

• We Should All Be Millionaires
  Rachel Rodgers

• More Than Enough
  Elaine Welteroth

• Year of Yes
  Shonda Rhimes

Prompts:

• How can you embody your vision, or the “future you” living your vision?

• What needs to die, or change, in your life to bring that embodiment alive?

• What do the concepts of embodiment and death mean to you after reading this essay?